Reading, reading, and more reading is for me a time-tested source of reflection. This week it’s The Practice of Spiritual Direction, by William A. Barry & William J. Connolly. They ask, “Who is God for me, and who am I for God?”
Who is God for me? God is infinity, God is love. God is both remote and inaccessible and also fully present and personal. For me that means God transcends mystery, which can be microscopic or cosmic in nature. God is always present, but not in control.
Who am I for God? Wholly imperfect, fully human, worthy, and loved.
How do I feel about myself in relation to God? Inadequate, imperfect (based on deep-seated, internalized judgments from my father and other humans. Now I remember that they, too, were both inadequate and also imperfect.)
How do I feel about myself in relationship with God? I feel loved for who I am, mortal and limited. I feel challenged to be my best self, not anyone else.
How can I enter into (fuller) relationship with God?
- Stop and breathe.
- Confess my greatest hope and/or my greatest concern.
- Listen to inner wisdom and wisdom of the ages.
- Begin again in love.
Those four steps do not require a belief in a particular god/dess or deity. They require me to tap into the depths of my own knowledge and experience. They remind me to love to the best of my ability day by day. (Reading helps, too!)
How do you maintain a connection with your highest power? In relation to what? In relationship with whom? (Even tentative thoughts are fine!)